A crisis of emotion is not always a crisis of faith. In fact, when God surgically removes the idols from our lives he replaces them with more of Himself, so, far from being a crisis of faith, this current circumstance is really a crisis into faith. Yes it’s painful. All surgery is. But painful doesn’t mean bad, and it certainly doesn’t universally mean harmful. When I say that I don’t know how the Lord will be glorified in this situation I do not mean that I don’t think He will. I mean I don’t know how He’s going to do that. I have to be okay with not knowing how He will work. The Lord is reminding me once again:
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.
Be not wise in your own eyes;
fear the Lord, and turn away from evil.
It will be healing to your flesh
and refreshmentto your bones.
Secondly, while I described our current life state accurately in my last post, I do not want you to think we are relying wholly on the “generosity” of the tax payers. The church, both locally and universally, is caring for us well. We have 8 families who are sending us monthly financial support. Our sending church in Georgia supports us financially and in prayer and through every way they possibly can, and our seminary church here in St. Louis is doing the same in different ways. We are being well cared for. The bride of Christ is beautiful and we see that beauty every single day.
So do not despair for me, and definitely do not despair for the church. The Lord is faithful, even in the incomprehensible.